Held at arms length
I struggle against the current
The expanding space between us muffling and dense
I know that clawing the particles only pushes what I want away
Yet I can’t help myself.
Abandoned. That’s how it feels when thoughts dwell in this space
Picked up, enjoyed, dropped, forgotten.
A reflection on me more than it is on you
Though the bitterness wishes you swim harder
Over thinking, complicating our honest simplicity
Tugging only loosens my grip
The internal longing causing me to slip
Hot faced and cold handed
lost balance
Life teaching me to let go
Practice non attachment
What I have is enough
And there it is;
That innate red power waiting
At the pit of my spine
An energy that knows more than my thoughts will allow right now
Of wonders in the unknown
and the potential that’s ready to seep through the cracks of life’s lessons
A constellation of scarring, bruising and bustling health
That compiles this moving vessel I command
So I stop resisting
Accept that control is an unachievable invention
And how wonderfully freeing it is
Embracing the chaos
Unleashing this orchestra of vibrations to disperse
Leaping into the unknown with shear faith it will catch me and weave me into the complex tapestry of this universe.
